Two Thousand Fine

Days turn into weeks, weeks into months, months to years, and what do the final accumulation of days, weeks, months, and years mean. Life? Your story, your existence, your voice. And what is all of this for? So much, so little. The curiosity of the life we live. The fear that holds some back and pushes others forward. And for what, is it personal acclamation and praise? Or is it the satisfaction of others we seek? What ever may be the answer and destination, what is this all for? How does one pick up, adjust, and start new. And within that idea at what point does the comfort come about to bring this being back and forth from reality to current experience of reality. The separation and distance is one factor. The other and uncontrollable factor is time. We cannot fight this we can only embrace and learn. Patience is a virtue I enjoy, however the best glory one can pull from the driving force of our lives that is time, is to understand and recognize what it brings and takes away, We all must hold ourselves accountable. This is required. For those that fail and beat down others for their shortcomings will never understand their failure. The dirt of gossip cakes the face. Thicker and thicker. The best removal is the removal of self from this area. For those that search for praise from others the removal of gossip from one’s life is the first step. The first of many in this path of time that creates our story. Those that search for praise form within, the area of gossip would be assumed easy to leave. This can’t be. To let go, leave, withdraw from the party on inclusion, start anew. This life style and desire that we call friendship, love, companionship, is a mere illusion for the friendship, love, and companionship we have with our own self. This understanding is the current idea that I have found the most recent dose of happiness in. For to be happy and blessed with you as this worldly observer is the ability to manifest your reality and the positive and powerful observers you will find along the way. A slump of depression is a low we all know. Some know it more than others, for it’s this recognition that is critical. Physics teaches us that a positive attracts a negative, this is proven to be true however is unrelated to the power of positivity within one’s self. What you emulate from your reality to be interpreted in the realities of others is what you attract and desire. Higher Value is one key to admiration. But is admiration the driving force behind friendship? The people you surround yourself with you search for similarities that builds attraction between the two observers. Is this what we search for? Does your view and opinion of your closest counter point (BFF) match their interpretation of you? Is this why we aim to please. Sacrifice and celebrate the knowing of another. All for the desire to be desired. Within the illusion of others and our self, what creates a severance and rift between two. Is it the sudden halt or destruction of admiration? We as people are built as pleasers. We strive and push for acceptance and recognition. So what causes us to go against our nature in a counter point situation? No longer searching from recognition, searching for anything but the norm. A destruction of emotional investments. A clean slate, a removal of understanding, a new trajectory towards illumination and enlightenment. All of which rides on the surface of time. And once again where do we go and what do we do with this. If time is all we have and all it allows is our interpretation. Than that is what we must do, interpret. Understand what time brings and takes. For years I desired and eventually was answered. Then my desire was removed from the fashion I wanted, however remained in my story of life as a different being. Another lesson to learn, patience and understanding must be the Doctorate of life. In Our journey as observers these virtues are taught over and over again, and for what. When and how do we cash in on our life account? Or is this a continual withdrawal. Whatever it maybe, All of the lesions taught and learned comes with a tag along. And this tag along as an observer must be recognized as a decision. Witch returns into the notion that we must be accountable. Everything we do is based upon a decision. To buy those shoes, to have another drink, to talk to that man or woman. As rational thinkers and beings we must understand the decisions we make and the possible outcomes they bring. Within all of this remains the continuance of accountability. Is this the key to your happiness? Understanding that you are accountable to the life you live. And the feelings you create. I find this true. Let’s practice this. Understand what and why you are doing such and follow what it brings. I will lead by example. I am about to fully embark on this adventure. It was my decision and most importantly, my action within it and on it that has brought me to this point. Weather I am ready or not, one foot must lead and the other can only follow. Like a child hugging the leg of their father and riding his feet, I welcome all to grab on and pick a foot. However the decision and accountability is yours. Will you ride the first foot or the one that follows? I love you all.